The Gig

It’s the gig.  It’s all there is.  Our body, this physical realm, the invisible electromagnetic fields in between, gravity, all forces known and unknown to man.  It’s more than we can perceive, but what we can perceive is happening.  It’s what is.

Our minds, our experiences, our thoughts, our stories – they are all wrapped up within our nervous system.  They are only a fragment of reality – the whole of which is seemingly endless and interconnected.

It would seem we have to choices – two extremes:

  1. Live our lives with a focus on our mental stories and projections… the movie going on in our heads.
  2. Live our lives with an awareness that includes the external world… the reality that is actually happening, at this moment, both internal and external.

The choice seems to be one of focus – do we focus on our personal story, or on physical reality.  The answer seems pretty easy:


Here’s the kicker… #1 consumes focus like we consume oil.  Relentlessly.  Sometimes to the point of ignoring #2.  If someone’s internal reality is so strong, they can choose to ignore reality.  This can be a benefit (think of pain endurance)… or a hindrance (think of someone in a fit of rage, convinced they are right and need to win an argument).

#2 supplies #1 with good material.  There’s nothing wrong with a story – in fact, storytelling is arguably humanity’s greatest ability.  But without observance and appreciation for the present moment, our stories can get out of line pretty quickly.

#2 first, #1 second…. the opposite order of bathroom business.


How Are You Feeling?

How are you feeling?

This question is almost always misinterpreted.  

I am feeling angry.  I am feeling well.  I am hungry.  These are answers to the question “What are you feeling?”.  To answer the question, “How are you feeling?”, I must answer the how.  I must also define ‘feeling’.

To be practical, I will define feeling as ‘perceiving emotions and physical sensory input’ (This is 1 of our 5 senses: Touch).  To answer the howI must describe my capacity to feel.


Example answers to the question, “How do you feel?”

Bad Answer (the meaning is vague and unclear)

I feel okay.

Decent Answer

My ability to feel is okay.

Good Answer (the meaning specific and clear)

My ability to feel is okay – I am aware of my body and thoughts, but some of my emotions are not clear to me.


Think of the consequences of this in a social situation…

James is not feeling well… his ability to sense others’ emotions is hampered by his thoughts about a stressful day at work. He goes to a party, and just does not seem to be able to connect with anyone around him.  He takes his friend Billy aside from the party to talk to him about this.

James: “I just don’t feel welcome here… Everyone seems so disinterested in what I have to say.”

Billy: “How are you feeling?”

James: “Well, fine, except for this problem.”

Billy: “No, no.  How are you feeling?  Can you feel the people in the room?  Can you feel your body?  What is your ability to perceive yourself and other people right now?”

James: “Oh… Shit… I haven’t been feeling at all!  I’ve just been thinking about my stupid day at work.  Wow.  Now I can feel a little bit of lingering stress, but I am also starting to feel like I can relax.  Thanks for the mirror Billy!”

James and Billy go back to the party and James is no longer isolated – With Billy’s help, James has turned his awareness back on.  Now he can sense how other people feel.  He can also sense how he feels.  This allows him to calibrate and connect to the people around him.


It’s all about our capacity to feel / sense ourselves and the world.  This is how we are able to help ourselves and others.  To understand the question in this way allows us to really understand the state of the other person.  It is a question of care – “How are you feeling?” “Is there a difficulty in your experience to feel/sense/perceive, and can I do anything to help?”


Smiling Asian Man

Driving over there, view skewed, but clear in the air

Vibrations underwheel, and under spirit, nothing to steal

We ride on ocean waves, out for ever, take them and don’t save

Nothing lasts forever, never to late, believe

See the one who’s smiling, the one riding it with me

Strategic Investment

Your investments feed organizations – they return a percentage.

Your money feeds organizations – they create a ripple.

You direct your money – it becomes labor.

You pay for labor – your investments enable organizations.

Your money feeds families – or slaves.

The organization chooses – you choose.


Their Space, Their Rules

If you enter a space, you are subject to its rules.

Depending on the public environment, your personal space may be invaded.  When I enter the board room (“war room”), I will be expected to add value.  If I do not, I will be denied access/forced out.


These are circles of power / circles of influence, and they may overlap, which could lead to conflict and/or collaboration.

Invasion -> Conflict

Invitation -> Collaboration

Something to Consider

Something to consider -> Your followers accepting invitations meant only for you.

Always be aware of space and what you bring.  If the space is negatively charged, ready to take, then be ready.  If the space is positive and you enter it (by invitation or invasion), be wary of what follows you… be a good shepherd and make sure a follower does not bring malice. -> if he does, sidestep and remind him of all of this. (Or send him away for now or give him a directive).

Social Dynamics and the Hover Man

From Zan

The energy of the hover-man, of the man who sits in on something already started, and stays there.  The man who invades, who injects himself.

To invade that space, or to sit in an already occupied space + take up room, could be a burden.

Ex. 1

To inject into a conversation between 2 girls on a couch, by sitting in a nearby chair.img_20170608_132008543_hdr.jpg

In the above image, the dashed line is the social ‘circle’ or ‘hill’.  It represents the contextual nonverbal signals being shared between entities in a shared space.

Ex. 1b

Keeping his own space space separate


By keeping one’s own ‘hill’, he does not intrude into the others.  This space is dictated by his awareness, and what he pays attention to.  He may invite the nearby others into his circle, sending the invitation from his space.  Or they may invite him in a similar fashion.  The key is that there be communication before personal space is invaded.

Some people have wide space, like warlords in their territory.  Entering a village could be sufficient aggravation to the current social setting to warrant behavior against you.

Space/Position – Be Aware – Control your space and invite others into it, and be aware of invites into other spaces.  Blatant ignorance of invitation could be interpreted as a type of mistrust / violence.

If you choose to enter another’s space without prior communication/invitation, it is likely you will face a moment of trust testing – to feel test your fit with the group, even if it is only for a quick second.  Your vibe and intentions will be scrutinized and the social environment will change to incorporate your entrance into it… whether it be with welcoming joy, or standoffish hesitation.

Not only your person occupies a space… Your attention does as well (even more so perhaps), and can possibly even create new space, or circle of power/influence.



Your sight is an invasion by nature.  Attention/awareness is ultimately the border of spaces.  If you cannot sense something, your senses cannot perceive an invitation or invasion.

*Some circles of influence/power/social connectives


Barriers – If I can’t sense you, you’re not in my space… or are you?

If an entity is subject to the space it inhabits, it needs barriers to survive.  Ex. Weather/Natural forces and Shelter.

In terms of influence:


A wants to be kind.  He yells: “All who can hear, I am your king! Bow to me.”

has the possibility to defend from this invasion by ignoring A. The invasion still takes place, in sonic form.  However, the influence need not linger.

Now say has an army and yells: “Bow or die!”

B could rally arms and defend its space.  Or it could yeild to the encompassing space of A‘s attention.  Or it could negotiate… Perhaps just wants to rule where B lives… And perhaps is willing to relocate… to leave the space that is being claimed by A.  Before it was contended for by both and B.  Afterwords, it is simply A‘s territory.

Also, consider the themes of those spaces in regards to the mind + the ‘internal’ world.

Same Old Story Untold

What is written is what is continued as tradition?  Nope.  What is written and read is what is continued as tradition.  Even if something exists, it doesn’t mean I can find it.  With the near infinitude of the internet, knowledge must be passed along and the fire must be keep burning, so that it may be found.

This blog post is a perfect example.  Just because I write it does not mean that it will be read and utilized.  I have to keep telling the story, and keep sharing it… that is the only way it will grow and thrive and live within the world.

If you find a dormant seed of knowledge in a dusty old tome, don’t keep it a secret.  Nurture it within your self first, then within a close community that can help it grow and become strong enough to be released into the big world.

Interpretation Often = Dysfunction

Between two people, communication looks something like this:

Person 1    ——–(message)——–>    Person 2

a. The message starts as a thought or impulse in the mind of Person 1.

b. The message travels to reach Person 2’s senses.

c. The message is converted into a thought or impulse in the mind of Person 2.

Translation is very rarely 100% accurate. 

No Need to Should on Yourself

The word “should”.  Think about this: If I say I ‘should have ____’… what I am really saying is that I want the past to be different.  Impossible.  Incredibly impractical.  Insane.  I should have done this, or I should have done that… It’s an everyday phrase, yet it is illogical to use.  As we understand the universe, the past cannot be changed, so any attempt to do so is… well it doesn’t work.

The only way the word “should” should be used is in the FUTURE tense.  

FUTURE: “I should go to the store today.”  Okay, that makes sense.  It is recognizing or making a judgement that it would be good for me to go to the store today.

PRESENT: “I should be in class.”  This is where the word becomes an illogical judgement.  If I am not where I should be… then reality becomes wrong.  Somehow my mind has deemed that it is more correct than reality.

PAST: “I should not have eaten that whole bag of chips.” This is also an illogical judgement, comparing an ideal scenario created in one’s thoughts with reality.  I ate the chips (reality)… but I should not have (my mind can picture an alternate reality in which I did not eat the chips).  Whether or not that alternate world would be better or worse, it doesn’t matter.  It is fantasy.  The reality is that I ate the chips, and believing anything else happened is not true.

The word “should” should not be used when speaking of the past and present.  From here on, we should speak only changing of the future.  The past and present have already happened.


****This also illuminates up the differences between different Present tenses.  Grammatically, I believe that Present tense can refer to immediately upcoming future events as well, but I’m no expert on this.  If you have any clarification on this, please leave a comment below.




Check out the dictionary page on the word ‘should’.  Note that ‘should have been’ is the first example.  Crazy.  Also note where the word came from, under the Origin section – from the word Shall (a future tense word).  



modal verb: should
  1. 1.
    used to indicate obligation, duty, or correctness, typically when criticizing someone’s actions.
    “he should have been careful”
    • indicating a desirable or expected state.
      “by now students should be able to read with a large degree of independence”
    • used to give or ask advice or suggestions.
      “you should go back to bed”
    • used to give advice.
      “I should hold out if I were you”
  2. 2.
    used to indicate what is probable.
    “$348 million should be enough to buy him out”
  3. 3.
    expressing the conditional mood.
    • (in the first person) indicating the consequence of an imagined event.
      “if I were to obey my first impulse, I should spend my days writing letters”
    • referring to a possible event or situation.
      “if you should change your mind, I’ll be at the hotel”
  4. 4.
    used in a clause with “that” after a main clause describing feelings.
    “it is astonishing that we should find violence here”
  5. 5.
    used in a clause with “that” expressing purpose.
    “in order that training should be effective it must be planned systematically”
  6. 6.
    (in the first person) expressing a polite request or acceptance.
    “we should be grateful for your advice”
  7. 7.
    (in the first person) expressing a conjecture or hope.
    “he’ll have a sore head, I should imagine”
  8. 8.
    used to emphasize to a listener how striking an event is or was.
    “you should have seen Marge’s face”
    • emphasizing how surprising an event was.
      “I was in this store when who should I see across the street but Toby”
Old English sceolde : past of shall.